I never expected him.
So incredibly beautiful.
I'm always surprised to discover different layers of your story and the similarity to my own experience.
I too remember vividly how my most sincere prayer was crying, barely able to speak from shock and pain and barely squeaking out the word "help" while walking through the mountains in the far away place I had gone to find myself and figure out a lot of things that had stopped making sense in life. Or rather, things that never made sense that I began asking questions about.